Sunday

SUNDAY 122

Time: 8:26
Place: Aliabad

Sunday post after a couple of weeks. Couldn’t write last week as I was in Karimnagar for Dasara. Couldn’t write the week before as I was busy with some work.

Its been a disappointing week. I had an initial call with AWS yesterday.. and got rejected immediately. It’s an opportunity that I lost. Aditya had given me the topics for the interviews one month in advance. There can be no excuses for why I could not prepare for the interviews. I wasn’t expecting them to focus entirely on networking. But I should have been better prepared.

I have now squandered 2 opportunities. 3 counting the Walmart last year. I have been overconfident and lax in my preparation. I have to do better. But how?

There are too many things running in my mind right now. I need to relax and clear my mind. Perhaps take a day off. I need to refocus and think about what I have to do. Too many times I do too much planning and very little execution. I should stop doing that.

I’ll need to think about things this week.

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SUNDAY 121

Time: 10:16
Place: Home

Sunday post on a Monday as I was busy yesterday.

So after a lot of posturing, OCM work finally arrived at our doorsteps. Its arrived in heaps. I had to spend a couple of days in night shift last week to shadow the US guys and learn OCM. There is bound to be more work in the coming weeks.

I learned this week that the Mrs. has an education loan of 2.9L amount to pay off. I am borrowing money for Mr. AB to pay the loan amount. I have planned to take a rental advance from the office for 1.8L to pay him back. The advance will get deposited in my account minus the tax so I will need to arrange about 50K extra in the coming months to pay him off.

I have asked the In Laws to stay back in Bangalore until the resolution of the education loan.

I posted my reply of the one year thing this week. I will need to make the time to write another letter this week.

SUNDAY 120

Time: 18:29
Place: Home

A so-so week.

Didn’t get much work done. Did some planning for the south africa trip.

In laws are visiting tomorrow and will stay for a week. Needless to say I will spend most of my time out of home and in the office.

4 workout days in the week.

SUNDAY 119

Time: 17:18
Place: Home

Another okayish week. On Monday I got to know that I got rejected from Wells. The manager apparently did not like my attitude. In retrospect, I can understand why he felt that way. I now understand that it doesn’t serve my purpose by being completely frank in job interviews. In other news, the Mrs. did not receive any calls.

Amazon will not be calling me this month. I am not expecting any other calls this month. I have to get down to work now. I have wasted the last couple of months. I have to complete the RAC certification by end of this month. I have a 10 day engagement with Fidelity coming up. I don’t know how much time that will end up taking. I have to start accepting the fact that I might be stuck at Oracle for some time to come and I have to learn the most from any new work that comes up.

I visited Tirumala on the weekend along with Friends. Though tiring, it was a good trip. I have made plans to visit Hyderabad this month end. I will staying there for a week.

After a lot of consideration, I agreed to the SA trip. It is going to be a costly trip and it not something I can truly afford right now. I may not have friends ready to tour with me when I do have the money for the tour though. I used Mr. B’s credit card for the flight tickets. The international tickets cost me 48638 (54042-10%) and the domestic tickets cost me about 9000.

 

SUNDAY 118

Time: 16:30
Place: Home

A long weekend this week. Didnt do a lot of productive work but spent some quality time with friends. Mr. B gave a treat yesterday at Windmills. It was fun. The gang have planned for a trip to South Africa in October. They want us to come too. I would like to go but I can’t afford the trip right now.

Wells Fargo didn’t get back to me. I will send them an email tomorrow and ask them about what is going on. The Mrs got a call for interview with Accenture. The interview might be scheduled in the coming couple of weeks. I hope it goes well for her.

OCM shadowing is about to start in the coming weeks. Its becoming very difficult to deal with now. I haven’t done much work with  Mercedes too this past few weeks. It is going to catch up on me very soon. I really need to get my act together fast.

4 day workout week. I did a good lower body workout yesterday after a long time. Legs really sore right now but its nice to get back in the groove. I need to make a 5 day workout week next week.

SUNDAY 117

Time: 09:04
Place: Home

An up and down week. I was stuck in the escalation with iQor till Monday. Tuesday was a holiday and I visited Nellore for the wedding on Wednesday. I received a call on Wednesday from Wells Fargo. They wanted to do a manager round. I attended the interview on Friday and it went well.

The problem with Wells Fargo is that the work is not that great. Its mostly going to be maintenance work on Exadata machines. The other problem is the location of the work. I can choose between Bangalore and Hyderabad but I cannot change my location once I join. That makes planning our logistics very difficult. Do I join in Bangalore and commit to being here for the next 2 years at least. Or do I join in Hyderabad in leave the Mrs. here to fend for her own.

There are some positives though. At least its not L1, L2 work. They are building a team and are planning to go up to 20 from the current 5. It would be good to join such a team. They are migrating several applications onto Exadata. This means that there is going to be a lot of work in the coming 2 years. Good job security.

I wish there were more options for me to choose from. I feel as if I am standing with my 2 feet on 2 separate boats, and the boats are moving in different directions. The escalation over the last weekend would not have happened if I had been focused on my work. OCM work will start sooner or later and I will need to get ready. I don’t have the time to dilly-dally.

I had a long discussion with the Mrs. today. We talked about what we should do if Wells did end up giving me an offer. It would be a difficult decision to make, so I gave her a week to make up her mind.

Meanwhile, I will spend as of time as possible this week preparing for the last technical round in Wells.

SUNDAY 116

Time: 10:04
Place: Home

I’m back. 4 months after my last Sunday post. 9 Months into my marriage. I am back to regularly writing the Sunday posts. Hopefully.

Continuing the theme of being stuck from the last post. I have had some time to reflect on my situation. It has been almost 2 months since I posted my resume to companies. I managed 2 referrals, one of which went to interviews. There has been no progress whatsoever.

There is only so much I can do. There is no point in being hard on myself and feeling down.  I need to accept my situation and adapt to the framework. It does not however mean that I abandon all ambitions. I need to be prepared for any opportunities that come my way as well.

So what’s my situation?

It’s been tough financially. Me and the Mrs have just 40K balance in the account. The Mrs. has completed paying off her marriage loans this month but will need to start paying her Education loan starting next month. At this rate it seems like I would end the year with net savings of 1L. I can’t even use that to pay advance for my next place if I move.

About moving: There would be no moving. I have been grumbling about having to stay so far away and having to spend so much time travelling to the office. I need to get used to the fact that I will be staying in the same place the rest of this year at least. No furniture as well. Living with minimal comforts doesn’t really bother me. I have lived this way for a long time.

Work: OCM work will start eventually. I will need to put in a lot of effort to scale up. That will affect the amount of time that I have for self skill development and to stay fresh for interviews.

So:
1. Budget is tight.
2. I stay in the same shitty place.
3. I struggle at work.

Looking at the bright side:
1. I will still end up with 10L in total career savings by end of this year. Most of them are immovable assets but they still count.
2. Its not so bad. Its quiet and breezy and not smelly.
3. I got an outstanding rating so I should get a promotion and a raise. Also Oracle is doing good relatively so its not a bad place to be at right now.

So the framework. How do I best utilize my time to continue a good career, and to stay happy?

The chat that I had with Chaman had some benefits. I am off the hook for this month at least. I can put off travelling to OTP for the rest of this month. I can continue travelling to PTP. I have a good opportunity to sit with the Apps folks and to learn from them. It will definitely do good to my career. I have reached saturation with regards to database certifications anyway. Adding Apps certifications will go a long way in improving my career and employability.

So I have a 3 pronged strategy: I spend time on OCM, Interviews and Apps. With regards to interviews, I think its best I do test cases every day. Working on test cases will give me real experience. 3 hours on each should keep me busy this month. It will not be easy however. Maintaining focus on 3 different things at the same time is very challenging. I have never done it in my life. I will get mentally fatigued and frustrated. I will once again use this journal as a medium to vent my frustration and to track and motivate myself.

Jai ho!

SUNDAY 114

Sunday post returns as promised after 4 week hiatus.

Sunday post on Wednesday as I was travelling on Sunday and haven’t been well these days. I cant remember the last time when I was sick for this long. Seems like I have been suffering from Viral fever. The symptoms were confusing in the first couple of weeks as there was no fever. Just mild headache. The fever started 3 days back. I have been on medication for about a week now.

I hope I get better soon as these have been frustrating weeks. I have struggled with food during this period. Normally I am not a great fan of the Mrs.’s cooking but the last few days have been specially difficult. Added to that her complete ignorance on how to care for the sick. I guess it has been difficult for her as well.

I had to attend a visa interview at the Argentinian embassy. It went well and I should have the passport with me sometime next week. That is the one positive thing to happen during this whole month. I would not be looking back at this march with any fondness.

Other bad stuff happened. Sis in law had to get another surgery. It seems the surgery that was done last year was unsuccessful. Bro has been under considerable stress. And he doesn’t talk to me about it so often I don’t know the complete picture. The fact that Bro has had to foot the bill for an expensive surgery means that he is not as financially secure as he would like to be right now. He knows that the problem with Sis in law will last her lifetime so he will need to be ready to make a lot of expense in the coming years. He wants support and understanding in these difficult times.

The least I can do is to help him financially. I have decided that when dad’s money comes, I will limit my claim to 5L. I sat and did some calculation the other day. With 5L from dad, I should be able to pay off all my loans by the end of this year. I am not happy about it but what can I do. When shit happens, you suck it up and deal with it. At least I don’t have to explain my financial situation to the Mrs. A little hard work over the next year and I should have 10L pooled in by the end of the year. With 10L in my hands, I can start thinking of buying a flat in 2019.

With me being sick the whole of the last week, I haven’t made a lot of progress on my mental state. Need to work more this week and the next.

SUNDAY 113

Time: 13:42
Place: Home

A very turbulent week. On Monday Mr. D called me and told me about an onsite requirement on the US west coast and asked me if I am interested in travelling. There was a similar offer that was given to me in October of last year. Hari was sent on L1 visa for that requirement. I informed Deepak that I would need to discuss with the Mrs and that I will get back to him in a day.

I think I made a mistake there. I should have told him that I need time to think about it. By telling him that I would let him know in a day, I ended up putting a lot of pressure on myself. I also did not factor in the fact that the Mrs can be very indecisive at times. I tried to speak to her in the evening but half her mind was occupied by her impending trip to Nellore. I spoke to bro and he told me that it would not be possible for the Mrs to get a job in the US.

The Mrs already knew that. She has a friend in the US who has been struggling to find a job for the last one year. She was not very keen on the idea. On the other hand she did not reject the idea. She kept telling me that it is a good opportunity and that I should not let it go.

We looked at the pros and the cons of the offer.

Cons:

  1. The Mrs would not get a job in her domain so she will have to find something different to work on. She was not very keen on that. Staying at home was not very appealing.
  2. If the Mrs quits her job in India, financially we would not do better that what we are doing now.
  3. If I go there alone and she stays back, both of us will have to live alone. It will be difficult for her, more so for me.

Pros:

  1. The project that Mr. D informed me about is in the West Coast. It is an implementation project with Goldengate and EM. It should be a good learning experience.
  2. Per DM of about 85$ per day. Living alone I should be able to save about 1000$ per month. A little hard work and I should be able to save 10L in an year.
  3. The exposure of having worked in the US.

In the end it came down to money. If we needed the money, we would have to spend an year away from each other. It would be difficult but this is the ideal time for us to do something like this. We would not be able to do it at a later point of time in our lives. I knew it would be difficult for me to live all by myself for an year but I ended up agreeing. We decided that I would apply for the visa, go to the US alone and stay there alone for a period of one year. She would visit me for a couple of months in between.

At this point I am not sure if it was the correct decision to make. Is it worth it? How would I survive? How would she survive? I guess we will have to wait and see.

So the Mrs traveled to Nellore on Tuesday evening. We had a mini fight on tuesday which I carried on to wednesday and thursday. There was no work in the office so I ended up staying at home during the weekdays. I asked the Mrs to return early but she told me that she couldn’t. I got pissed off at that and got very mean on the phone.

I thing I need to find a way to control my anger, specially if we are going to spend time away from each other in the future. Regardless of whether or not she does the things that I like, being mean and scolding her would not help. I think it is time I start accepting her for who she is and stop complaining. I cannot ask her to prove her value in our relationship at every point in time. I would need to find the value where I can and be accommodating at other times.

What is the secret to a happy relationship? The Mrs often mentions that it is a shame that I have never been in a relationship before. I am starting to think she might be true.

SUNDAY 112

Time: 14:08
Place: 5A021, OTP

2015 – Malaysia
2016 – U.S
2017 – Argentina

Looks like I will be visiting Argentina this year. The trip is planned for next month and will span one month. Migration folks in Argentina want some training in the tool and some migration work to be done onsite as well.

The trip will be challenging, firstly because of the language problem and secondly because of the fact that I have only done about 4 migrations till now and an not very well equipped to provide a migration training.

Inspite of the challenges, a one month trip to the south american continent is too good to resist. I discussed with the Mrs and she was fine with it. She will invite her parents to come stay with her while I am gone. When Mr. C asked me if I was interested, I replied that I was in fact willing to do the trip. Thankfully Mr. Ch did not raise any objections this time around.

I really need to complete the OCP examination the coming week. I have been postponing the exam for 2 months now and I need to complete it asap. Once I am done with the OCP, I can concentrate on learning some spanish which will help me survive in Argentina.

We have a team outing the coming week. I also need to attend the Mrs.’s cousing wedding for which I might lose 2 days.

Visited the doctor this week for a follow up checkup. He checked and told me that everything looked just fine. I should be able to participate in all activities after another week. Now that everything is fine on the physical front, I can focus on other things with some peace of mind.