Month: March 2013

Prog 6

So two months after the first prog, here comes prog 6.

Last few weeks:

Good:

1. It’s not a good thing that I did specifically but rather a good thing that happened. Construction of home completed and mom and dad shifted the stuff from Saroornagar to Aliabad. The mody account still needs to be settled and he is causing a lot of trouble. This will take some time and effort and I hope it can be resolved soon.

2. Practiced typing a little more and seems like I am getting the hang of it.

3. Have thought a little about what my agenda should be in the office. I think I have a pretty good deal at the office specially with my age and the time I have ahead of me. I have plenty of stuff to learn here and I have to make the most of it. I have to come up with a plan for that and I will be looking to work on that this week.

4. Cut my guitar nails. After 2 years it feels a little different. Some change huh..

Bad:

1. Have completely given up on the guitar. It’s not that I am getting lazy. I need to spend atleast 30-45 mins on the guitar daily and I am thinking of using that time for some other use. But I have to make sure that I use that time and not waste it away.

2. Have wasted a lot of time this week. Have to firm up and do useful things continuously. Create a proper schedule and manage my time well. I have to go back to my old mantra.. “Kill youself each day and be born anew the next day”.

Next week:

Have to come up with a plan as o how I should approach Oracle learning.

Practice more typing.

Make better use of time.

Being Perfect

What does it take to be perfect? What does it even mean one says that a person is perfect? How can you tell? what parameters, if any can be used to determine if a person is perfect. Is it even possible for a person to be perfect? And does one even need to be prefect.

Quite a lot a questions I have made for myself right here.. I guess I’ll have to try and answer them. But before I start, I’d like to ramble on a little.

I have come to realize that a person doesn’t really change as he grows older. He might become wiser or more secure and confident, but the core part of him does not change. I can certainly say that I have not changed over the years.

When I was young, about 15 years old, my common complaint was that I didn’t have any inspiration to do things. When every other kid talked of having an ambition or a dream, I had none. I felt that the rest of the kids were also faking and none of them really had any idea what they were talking about. I still feel the same way today. At 25 years of age, I have no dream. I do have inspiration now, and a lot of times I inspire myself, but I can still feel that I sometimes lack inspiration.

When I was about 20, I started feeling that a man should live his life based on a set of rules. But at that point of time I didn’t have a clue as to how I should go about setting rules for myself. Is there a book on the subject? I tried googling but didn’t find any satisfactory answers.

Now I’m 25. I am still the same. Only, as I have grown older, I have started getting a clearer picture of how the world works and how I should go about handling myself. And the last couple of years have been a steady learning curve. I want to build on what I have learnt   and get better. And be perfect one day. Which is where I started off today.

So why do I want to be perfect? I have no clue. But how do I go about it? We’ll come to that. First I need to answer the question..what does it mean to be perfect.

You cannot change yourself physically. What you have is what god blessed you with and you can only make the most of it. You can certainly change what is inside you though. In my considered opinion, as on 23rd march 2013, to be perfect, a man must try learn everything he can and try to be good at everything he does. He must be humble, caring, and must always remember his roots.

A perfect man inspires other by his example. He looks up to and learns from people who are better that him and helps and teaches others who are worse off than him. A perfect man takes himself seriously and has the constitution that can handle most difficult situations. He works hard to better himself and those around him. He learns from his past, lives in the present and has an eye on the future. He accepts the responsibility that is pushed onto him. Finally a perfect person finds reasons to be happy with all the troubles of the world on his head and keeps his feet on the ground when he is gifted with all the pleasures of the world.

I think I answered a lot of questions in the last para. All it takes is hard work. I guess I should stop writing this and get on with it.

Prog-5

I’ts amazing how fast weeks fly past when you have a project and meaningful things to do in life. Anyway here is prog 5.

Good:

1. Worked on the guitar a little. Lazed off on the weekend though. This has been happening every weekend and I need to find a way out of this.

2. Got the bike serviced.

3. Settled issues at home as they came up. A left to handle next week.

Bad:

1. Didn’t start any new training this week as I had planned. The GG training seems to be more trouble than I expected. Have to work on Oracle DB though.

2. Didn’t have any conversations with Bro. Have to talk to him next week and give him support. Things must be getting really difficult for him.

Things to do:

This is a critical week for the house work. All the major works will be completed this week, Have to keep planning and be in constant touch with mom and dad. Will have to make it out of this week somehow. Have to start working on some kind of training.

Comic question of the day : Pride

We often hear people being praised for their humility or lack of pride. Why is that?

As people grow bigger, and by bigger I mean either financially better off or politically powerful, our pride tends to grow as well. And this pride affects the way we deal with others. A person lacking humility will show respect to most people and will treat everyone as equals. A person with a bloated pride however might look down on people he considers worse off than him. And this attitude is obviously not appreciated by everybody.

A persons normal behavior is something that comes naturally to him or her. To act or think different than your normal self requires some amount of effort. So if I decide to forgo all pride and develop humility in my behavior, how much effort will I have to put in. And will the effort be worth it. How will I know that my effort is paying off. And how do I even go about it.

I’ll try to answer the last and most difficult question first. To forgo pride, we have to first ask ourselves, what is pride? Wiki’s answer to this question is:

Pride is an inwardly directed emotion that carries two common meanings. With a negative connotation, pride refers to an inflated sense of one’s personal status or accomplishments, often used synonymously with hubris. With a positive connotation, pride refers to a satisfied sense of attachment toward one’s own or another’s choices and actions, or toward a whole group of people, and is a product of praise, independent self-reflection, or a fulfilled feeling of belonging.

The keywords in the para above are: personal status, accomplishments, sense of attachment towards one choises, independent self-reflection and fulfilled feeling of belonging. I’ll take up each of these keywords individually and analyse them.

Personal Status:

Usually directly linked with money or political power or both. And is also the most harmful. While it’s okay to feel pride for the achievements that have brought you the fame and fortune, one should not let this pride influence his judgement or manners. The bigger or more powerful a person gets, he is bound to come into contact with more and more people thus being in a position to influence a lot of people.

and at this point I got hungry and got up to have breakfast, thus destroying my chain of thought and what would have been a very good piece of work. Fuck my hunger

Prog 4

So another week has gone by and I find myself writing yet another Prog report. So here goes:

Good:

1. Started the running schedule well. Ran 27 kms this week. I have to make sure I give adequate rest to my legs though.

2. Was in constant touch with mom and dad throughout the week. Settled some issues that came up. Still a lot of work left to be done.

Bad:

1. Didn’t quite get a lot of effort into the guitar. With On-Call on this week, I had a real chance to get some practice under. Have to do better next week.

2. Have to put in more effort in office. Have got a lot to learn so have to keep up.

Next Week:

I have been thinking of starting training in a new tool for sometime. I have to start the GG certification process but I am also thinking of learning Perl. Have to do some research about this and come up with a plan. Also I have to put more effort into the guitar as always.