Time: 18:57
Place: Home

A good week. 6 day workout week. Covered all the major workouts and finished off with a 10K run today. I had a body analysis done last Tuesday and was disappointed to find out that I put on 1KG weight in the last 2 months. I gained fat and lost muscle mass. This was suprising to me since the last 2 months has also been the time in which I have been the most regular to the Gym in the last 2 years.

Even though the scales show a wait gain, I feel a little leaner and fitter. If I keep putting in 5 day or 6 day workout weeks over the next few months, I should shed some weight. I need to control my diet though. I have cut down on the amount of coffee that I am used to having. Less coffee would lead to lesser sugar intake. I also need to cut out the evening snacks or at least replace them with something healthier.

So the Mrs and I have made up our minds. We are going to start trying to have a baby. We don’t know how long it might take.. the sooner the better I guess. In order to convince the wife though, I had to agree to having a dog in the house. Having a dog would mean more expenses are more work for me. Its worth it I guess.

Dads money thing is progressing as usual. I got my salary for last month so this months expenses are covered. I need to pay some money to the company to get the final settlement. I am thinking of taking a loan of about 1.5L from bro to tide over next months expenses. The Mrs is going to get some bonus to it should get easier. If dad’s money comes before that, I would not need to borrow from bro.

Managed not to have a fight with the Mrs this weekend. We went out yesterday and had some positive conversations today. I need to do what I did this weekend the coming weekends too. That would be to mostly leave the wife alone!



Time: 20:40
Place: Home

First weekend of what should be a very fast moving month. I worked the entirety of last week at home. I am thinking of doing the same for the rest of my time at Oracle. Mr. Ch should not have a problem with that.

After a 6 days gym week, I ended up with a 3 day gym week. I need to pick it up next week.

The Mrs. and I had a good chat today. We made 2 decisions. First that we would get a puppy. Second that we will try to conceive starting this month. These are big decisions that we have made and I don’t think we have thought it through entirely. But its not like we have anything to lose.

I booked tickets this week for a visit to Hyd. We will be spending 5 days there. I am looking forward to it.

I bought a chair for my home office. Paid 8K for it. The Mrs. thought it was very expensive but I wanted a chair that I could sit comfortable in. I am slowly setting up my home office. The only thing remaining now is to buy a laptop. I have been thinking a lot about it, but I am not able to make up my mind. I was thinking about buying a macbook air but the 128GB storage makes it a bad deal. I cant afford a macbook pro. I need windows so I cant buy a DOS laptop.  I need a laptop that has a good battery. I am partial towards a thinkpad as I have been using it for 3 years now and I love it. It is expensive though.

Need to make up my mind this week.


Time: 18:05
Place: Home

Sunday post on a Sunday. Something that should be commonplace has become so rare that I am putting this up just like every other post I write. My problem is not that I don’t have time  on Sundays. My problem is that I don’t want the Mrs. to get a whiff of this blog and I cannot write a post without seeming inconspicuous. Most weeks I would write a post on the weekdays at a time when she isn’t around at home. I guess it doesn’t matter that much on which day I write this post. Then again its titled the Sunday post so it should come on a Sunday? I digress..

It’s been a good week. I have been at peace with myself these past few days. The frustrations have eased out and the anxieties have lessened. I spend less time looking into the future now. I am learning to spend time in the now. I have to get better at it, as the Mrs. keeps saying.

Now that I have a job offer and will soon be leaving Oracle, I have time on my hands. It got me thinking about what my priorities are for my career and what my ambitions are. It’s not something that I have thought about before. For about 14 years now, I have gone with the flow and have never really stopped to consider what I am doing or what I should be doing. I will be 30 soon. I really need to figure out what my career should be and what I need to do to shape the career that I want.

If one is passionate about what he is doing, planning a career is easy. For someone like me who is only working for the sake of money, its difficult to be passionate about work and to find interest in learning new things. I have a month and a half before I join Pythian.









Time: 13:30
Place: Cab on the way to office

Sunday post on Tuesday.

I resigned from Oracle today. When I spoke to Mr. Ch last week, he said Oracle would match the offer that Pythian was giving me. This got me thinking whether resigning was  the correct move. I weighed the pros and cons and thought about it a lot. I had a chat with my old colleague Ramesh from Mphasis who had worked at Pythian for 2 years. He told me that it was a good company and that I could join them.

I am moving from a position where I am very comfortable. I have built a good rapport with the management and a good reputation. Will I be able to build the same kind of rapport in the next company? Will I be able to learn like I have learnt at Oracle? I am taking a massive chance right now and this move could backfire spectacularly. Only time will tell.



Time: 21:31
Place: Home

So I got the offer from Pythian. I will resign from Oracle next week. I am a little disappointed with the offer that they gave me. It is nevertheless a lot of money that is being offered. I am a happy man right now.

The Mrs. did not get the offer from Accenture. Dad’s thing is ongoing. I spoke to bro this week and told him that I might need some cash from him. He said he would give me the cash.


Reflections (Of an year gone by and an year to come)

Its 11:27 PM right now. Normally its past my bed time but for some reason I am not able get sleep. I am pondering over the implications of the events of this week.

I have been offered a position at P. I have been looking for a new job for an year now. I have been disinterested at work ever since SSC broke up in October 2016. I worked hard to prepare for interviews. I failed to clear in 2 companies. Those rejections hurt. I finally managed to get a job. I am being offered 19 LPA. That is more than I would have managed in either of those companies. It’s good money, but I am not over the moon.

I need time to process this change in my life. I have faced so many disappointments over the past few years that I conditioned myself to not have too many expectations. Now that something positive has happened, I am not quite sure how to react. I stop myself from being getting happy. I can sense a disappointment around the corner. I an not getting my hopes up, to protect myself from pain in case I fail at something.

I have been too wound up. I need to start relaxing now.  I will need to temporarily arrange for some cash to settle my bills at Oracle and to buy some stuff. Starting May 2018, I will start getting fat pay checks so my money problems should ease up. Once that happens, I will go easy on myself and more importantly, go easy on the wife.

Good days are coming. Time to cheer up.


Time: 19:50
Place: Home

Sunday post after more than a month.

I have been busy this past month. I got an interview opportunity with Pythian and I worked very hard to clear the interviews. I have passed 4 rounds of interview and will know the result next week.

My life has been in a limbo this past one year. A lot of things around me seem temporary. It feels like I am constantly living just managing with what I have. An offer with Pythian will see me turning a new leaf. I feel I can handle the extra stress that will come with working at Pythian when other things around me will become easier. A lot of problems will be solved if I start earning more money. I am expecting more than double what I am getting now.

The coming week will be pivotal in more ways than one. Dads money thing has reached its conclusion. Dad is going to get at least 26L. Once the order copy is given next week, the money will come in a couple of weeks. Bala’s loan has ballooned to 1L. I desperately need the money.

The third thing that I am expecting will happen is with the Mrs.’s job. She attended several rounds of interviews with Accenture last month and has completed her interview process. Like me, she is waiting for an offer letter.

I will write a Sunday post next week. Depending upon what the results are for me, the Mrs and dad, my mood can be any of the below:

  1. All 3 happen: Very Very happy.
  2. Only 1 happens: Happy
  3. None happen: Very Very grumpy.


Time: 17:57
Place: Home

Finally a Sunday post on an actual Sunday. Tomorrow is Christmas so this being a long weekend, I have more time today. Not that I am that busy on the other weekends. But still.

Next weekend is new year. I will be travelling to Pogo’s place for the new year party. Since I will be travelling, this will be my last post for this year,  Sunday post or otherwise.

5 day gym week. The gym guy said he will be putting up the new year offers next week. The Mrs. wants to start attending the gym. I will make a deal next week for a 6 month or a 12 month membership for the 2 of us.

Last week I wrote about wanting to start living in the now. I practiced this over the week and I am feeling good about it. I have clarity of thought now and I have a sense of purpose during the day. I no longer feel that I am just drifting. I feel that I am dealing with things a bit better too. I need to keep this up.

Grandfather was re-admitted to the hospital. It seems his medication was not correct the first time he was hospitalized as his diabetes was not taken into account. It seems he is pretty diabetic. I did a video call this morning and he seems to be doing fine although he looked very week.

Dad’s pipeline order did not come today. It seems the officers were busy with other stuff.


Time: 9:20
Place: Home

Could’t write a Sunday post last week. Sunday post on a Monday this week.

I celebrated my birthday yesterday. It was fun. The friends came my place on Saturday and we had dinner and then some booze. Had a good chat till 2 AM. Woke up in the morning and went to watch the star wars movie. Overall a good birthday.

Another interesting development happened last week. Mr. Ch informed me that I am due to be promoted. I will also be receiving a 10% raise. The news gave me the morale boost that I desperately needed. The last few months have been tough. I can now start turning around my life.

I now have clarity on what I need to do. During the past few months, I have spent an excessive amount of time looking into the future and planning, as a result of which my execution has suffered. I need to start living in the now and investing in myself more. My career needs an impetus and I need to make the time to make it happen.

4 day gym week. Will try to do a 5 day gym week this week.

Dad says the order copy of the pipeline money will arrive today. Will need to wait and watch.

Granddad was sick and was admitted to the hospital couple of days back. He seems to be recovering now.

A letter to Sridhar – 2018



Sridhar Reddy
Aged 29 years 9 Months

Hey pal. It’s me. You from an year back. How is it going? How is the Mrs doing?

I can image it has been a tough year for you. Most of the fun and games stop with me. You are the making of a quintessential middle class head of the family. Your life is not flashy or pleasant or happening but is something that must be suffered through to effectively raise a family.

I know I am doing no favors to you by heaping the loan to be settled for the South Africa trip on your head. I failed to get a better job when I had the opportunities. Its Nov 15th now and there has been no announcement of a hike so you will be managing with the same salary for the entire year. I am truly sorry for this.

What challenges have you faced during the year? For some time now, I have felt the need to start a family. Right now I feel there are 2 conditions that must be met for me to start on that path. One: I should be saving at least 40K per month (I first wrote down 50K per month but then did some quick calculations and realized that I will never be able to save 50K per month).  Two: Swathi should have moved onto a new job.

I do not set the bar very high when it comes to my behavior when dealing with situations that I am not comfortable being in. When shit happens, I do not deal with it well. I realized in the South Africa trip that I have a pretty big ego. When my friends told me that I was behaving overly responsibly, it meant that I was not masking my feelings well enough. This is one aspect of my personality that I have to improve on, specially as I age and take up more responsibility onto my shoulders.

I have also realized that I am not very good at following up on things. I plan to do stuff but don’t see it through. Take this post for example. I was supposed to write it in September. I started it on the 15th of Nov then left it off for another 3 weeks. This is something that I really need to change in life. When I get to be you, I do not want to be the person that I am now.

How do I go about changing myself. I sorely lack the focus. I lack the patience and endurance that I have tattooed on my shoulder. I think it is difficult to focus when life is complicated. I need to start making my life simpler. When I get to be you, if nothing else, I would want to be a more focused man.  I know when I can focus, I can be successful.